For me, what should have been the best couple of weeks of the year turned out to be probably the most difficult. My mom was admitted to the hospital and is currently in ICU getting better, little by little, thanks to God's blessings. In the past week, I have felt the most scared I have felt in my entire life. New Year's Eve (which was always my least favorite holiday to begin with) was spent at home shedding tears and saying countless prayers. This year, unlike other years, came with tremendous revelations and thoughts and decisions.
I have decided to take a break from photography for a short while (which kills me!!!!) but I need to take time to help my mother as she recovers. I also need to study diligently for my doctoral comprehensive exams in early March. And well, I also need to focus on me and my health as I have been experiencing severe back pains for a while now. I finally made the ever dreaded appointment to see a chiropractor... it has been years with this pain and I could barely stand it anymore.
I mean, I know 2014 should be a good year for me -- at least that is what I have kept telling myself. There are so many exciting new things in store for me. There are things that I have plans for, things that are exciting but scare me, and of course, life will make sure to have some things that I am absolutely unprepared for but I can only hope that the unexpected is always something that I can handle.
Winter break will be gone in just two days and I still feel like I need a new vacation already. I am not mentally (nor physically) ready to go back to work. I am tired. I am exhausted. I want a break. I want my mommy to be home and healthy and happy. I want to lay in bed. Is that too much to ask for?
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